Yesterday i had bunches of fun. lol
Sam, Heather, Kevin [heathers boyfriend], My mom and i went to Reno.
Me, my mom and sam got to the "Ultimate Rush" place b4 heather and kevin did and sam really wanted to go on the go kart things so him and i went on those. talk about hilarious.........
After we were done we had to wait for Kevin and Heather a little bit longer and the anticipation was killing me!!! So they finally show up and Heather and I go pee so that we dont have to later. lol Sam and i go on it first so we get suited up and walk over to the place where they hook you up to the swing. and all of a sudden we're hanging on our stomachs. The guy asked us who was gonna pull the chord and i made sam do it.... we get pulled up to the top and the guys all like " 3, 2, 1 fly" and sam pulls the chord and i start screaming and so does sam lol. but it wasnt girly or nothing just incase you all were wondering...... lol [ i love you sam] after we got to the bottom it wasnt so scary anymore but it still was a little. Heather and Kevin go next and ovcoarse she makes kevin pull the chord. So they get up to the top and Kevin waits like a billion hours to pull the chord cuz he wants to make sure that shes ready and they kinda scream, Heather more then Kevin. It was funny. We all went again. and i think that it was just as bad the second time but only the first fall. the rest of it was just chill. After that all of us went to taco bell and ate and Kevin kinda embarrassed Heather because he was talking about taking a crap and the lady behind him heard and almost puked lol. funny.
When we got done eating we went back to the grand sierra and went bowling. My mom won the first game with 102 and i won the second game with like 70 sometin. idr. I had fun bowling but i took me until the second game to realize i was holding the ball with the wrong fingers. [ im retarted] its not like i didnt know how or anything lol. Kevin and Heather left after the games were over and we [ sam, mom, and I] went to mcDonalds and then went home. it was a pretty long day!
so my birthday was on friday. i turned 17. I dont feel any different really. It was so cute though on friday because when i got to school my boyfriend tells me to close my eyes and so i do and he puts a dozen red roses in my hands and tells me to open my eyes. it was so cute. he got me a card too that sang. it made me laugh but i liked it. Heather and Sam came over after school and we hung out and ate dinner. we started watching ratatouille. [ i think thats how you spell it] but then Heather had to leave half way through it. Sam and i finished it and ate cake [ which was the bomb by the way] and opened up the rest of my presents. i got a chefs jacket with my name on it in orange!!! the shit. i know. I got other things too but that was one of the best.
just so everyone knows i dont care anymore. The person that i was jealous of im not anymore and the guy who broke my heart? im over it. i decided to forget about him. he means nothing to me now. because i have a wonderful boyfriend who i love so much and i know that he loves me for who i am and no one else. There's just one thing that started to bug me as of like five minutes ago. Sam is so good to me. He does everything i want him to and more. I dont want him to think that im using him because someone had said that i was just using him and im not. I sometimes wonder though, if im a bad girlfriend. i wonder if i dont do enough since he does so much for me. maybe i should do more??? i dont know. I've been told that im self centered and i only care about myself which isnt true but at times i see how maybe i could be self centered. i dont know????
sam. continuation to the other.
So sam liked this girl CA and when i found out that he wanted to date her i was totally jealous. yep jealous of ca. but like who wouldnt be? i mean she has the prettiest long red hair ive ever seen. So even thought i didnt want them together i pretended like it didnt bother me and when ever sam called me for advice on asking her out and why she acted the way she did around him and everything else. i was there for him like a good friend would be. But then sam was having second thoughts about dating her. he said that she was a bitch and other things. Sam was catching on that i liked him when i was trying my hardest not to show it. [Walker and i hadnt broken up yet i dont think] Sam asked me if i liked him and i told him no and he asked if i was sure and i told him yea. he told me that he kinda liked me. A few weeks later walker broke up with me and the next day i came to school and was totally heart broken. Sam was there to help make it better but even though i liked him it didnt help as much as it should have. So like the wonderful guy sam is he told me he would wait for me as long as he had to and Oh Emm Gee did he!! He waited for me for a really long time and then i finally gave up on walker and i being together again so i told sam i was ready the night of the ocktoberfest at school and thats when we became a couple. it didnt last very long though. sadly. i thought that it would have lasted longer. to tell you guys the truth i just couldnt get over walker. i cried over him for the longest time. but then i looked back on our [walker and i] relationship and just got mad. i could never forgive walker for what he did and all i wanted to ever do is just forget about him i dont think about him very much anymore. i dont think that we could ever be friends again.
I think i could honestly say the first guy i was ever truly in love with that i could say i wanted to be with for ever would have to be Walker Kenneth Gotchy. It was a funny story how we met........
The summer before my sophmore year Heather Rush and I went to this drivers ed class at wncc in Carson. It was fun but like a week before we went i was in cali wakeboarding and dislocated my knee. So i had on this huge leg brace and crutches. [for all you people who have never had to use them, they SUCK!!!] anyways Heather and i walk in to the classroom and find a table to sit at. A little while later after the class had gotten settled in we went to the computer lab where the simulators were. Heather and i got seperated because it took me so long to walk there with the crutches that when we were looking for a seat there wasnt any empty with two next to each other. so i see this really cute guy up in the front with an empty computer next to him and i go up there and sit by him and he is super friendly and very open minded. he laughed at me because i couldnt bend my leg at it was kinda weird. So we talked and hung out as much as we could at lunch and in between classes. It was only for a week though. After it was over we talked on myspace for a while and he wanted me to call him but i never did. A year later i had found his phone number and decided to give him a call. We talked for a really long time and i called him everday for a while. I had never felt this way about anyone before in my whole life. it was scary but awesome at the same time. We ended up dating but it was really hard because we barely ever got to see each other. Our relationship lasted about 4 and a half months then he broke up with me......
HIS REASONS:
It was to hard for him not to be able to see me.
MY TRANSLATION:
Uhm i cant stand the fact that you wont have sex with me.
im a horn dog that wont cheat on you so im braking up with you so i can have some pussy.
During the last month of our relationship i met this guy named sam. I thought that he was really cute and had a nice personality, but since i was with walker i was in denial because how could you ever like someone else when you are with the one you want?
